Wonderings

I've been feeling kind of down, off and on, the past month or so. I haven't really let on why to most people but I am just having this huge internal struggle with myself. I have so many questions, frustrations, and wonderings as to where I will be and where I will go in the next couple years. And as I wonder and struggle I start to think thoughts that are not true but do bring you down. Thoughts that maybe there is no plan for me. I'm not special and I won't find something that fits me right. Where is my place?? I feel like I've looked into so many things, always discarding plan after plan, idea after idea. Sometimes I feel like I'm bound up, trying to get free but not being able to escape constraints around me. Constraints that I put on myself, constraints on how I think others see me, and constraints of my society and the world I live in. This is my pain right now, what plagues me, what I am constantly thinking about.