I have a question!!!

and this is my question. What happened to blogging? I used to love blogging and wasting numerous hours writing them and reading others while posting my thoughts on what they had written. I miss it. Has Facebook taken over? I don't think it should have. Blogging is a lot more personal and a lot more informing about your life. facebook is cool but let's not let blogging die out! I will try to write more blogs.

So....let's see, what is new with my life?? My new current life plan is getting a Bachelor of Science at the U of S. I am not quite sure what that major will be, maybe anatomy and cell biology or food science. Maybe Microbiology, who knows?? Then after that I would possible like to go to Toronto or B.C. to get a four-year degree in Natureopathic medicine. For anyone who is curious about what the heck that is, it is a natural form of medicine using acupuncture, homeopathy, and stuff like that. So this year I am taking two classes at the U of S, Psych 110 and Sociology 110 and taking a bunch of high school classes online through cyber school. The subjects will include math, physics, chemistry, and biology. So this year will be kind of busy. This is my plan as of now but I seem to change my mind every couple months so we will see how far I am along on this plan by next year. It kind of scares me actually. It's scary because I really want to help people be healthier and help them with health conditions and stuff but I don't really know if I like science that much. So I guess this is my deciding year to see if I even remotely like it. Or even next year. And I guess sometimes it's about doing what you have to do to get to where you want to. It's also scary because I would have to go away in four years and this school is really expensive. Like 20,000 Canadian dollars a year expennsive. part of me is like, where is that coming from even with student loans? There's something I hate about myself and that's this desire to be ahead or at least be neck and neck with the people my own age. I feel like I had a late start with taking a year off and then having to go back to high school. i really don't like this quality in myself and I am trying very hard to change. Partly because I just dont' want to worry. I worry way too much. i think it's unhealthy. like anxiety problems. My plans will go nowhere without God. I think I need to let God take the worry a lot of the times. because I plan and plan and plan and get really upset about stuff that I don't know anything about yet. That I dont' even know will turn out or not. And I think of the varying possibilities for everything. That makes for a lot of thinking. And I know I joke about it and others do, and sometimes it is funny. but sometimes it's really hard and really scary and overwhelming.

On a lighter note.........I went to NPYC this year and it was a blast. It really sucked that I had to miss all the years before. I caught my first fish, went on some crazy tube rides, made a few new friends and bonded more with the old ones. Played the most painful, insane, but awesome game called Armeggedon and I can't wait to play it again next year! And most importantly, sought the presence of God. I really want to seek God's presence like that on my own time. but I experienced God in an insane way and in those moments i wonder how anyone could say that God doesn't exist when you can see him and feel him moving so powerfully. Okay, well that's my blog for this week. I'll try to update next week!