I'm not going to be a sideliner

Ow! my face hurts....that's the benefits of being a swimming teacher...being in the water more hours than someone would want to, even for fun. But it pays tuition....and that's all that counts I guess.

Also, this is my second blog in a month, which is impressive, considering we all stopped blogging a long time ago. I am listening to Christopher Parkening: A Bach Celebration. I have to say it is amazing!! I will never be sick of it which is quite astonishing since I have been hearing this arrangment since I can't remember. My dad played it in the car all the time when I was younger. A lot younger, like 10 years ago or more.

I have been thinking about what I want to do with my life for a very long time. Since I was possibly 11 years old. I think my first idea was a librarian, my only basis for this reasoning being that I loved to read. I could think of nothing better than to spend my time amongst that which brought me great joy. As a sidenote, it still bring me great joy but not enough to be a librarian. Then I wanted to be a psychologist. Just the word itself was interesting. Then I considered being a youth pastor. That apparently was another phase. I then switched back to Psychology. Then I wanted to be a concert pianist. Then I thought about being a missionary. Then a naturopathic doctor. Then a psychologist....this seems to be a recurring thing for me. I still am not decided but have come to the conclusion that this is alright. I will eventually get there but it will take some intiative on my part. I have decided I dislike the question, " do you know what you want to do with your life?" I admit that I ask people that all the time. You always end up doing a whole bunch of different things with your life. A lifetime can be a long time for some people and to know what you want to do with all of that is a pretty monumentous question.

One thing I know I don't want to be is a sideliner. I don't want to be one of those people who stands by and watches the world, as the audience and not the actor. I don't want to be someone who admires people but never thinks that I have the potential to make a difference as they are. I don't want to be someone who looks at who I am now and thinks because of that I can never be like that person or never do as great of things as they can. I want to seize my moment. I don't want to be a person of bad character and committing acts of evil, but I also don't want to be someone who is afraid to step out and stop being invisible. Being visible can be scary. As we step out and stand up, we need to realize that life won't always be perfect. Just because we stand up for God doesn't mean we will always be clothed, have a full belly, or be safe. Look at those who stood up for GOd and who were eaten by lions. Sometimes moving from invisibility to visibility means death! but we can we know we are always moving towards God and His love whatever we do, it we are following after God's heart. This is what is on my mind right now. Make life happen, don't stand still and let it happen to you!

-Jesus promised his disciples three things-that they would be completely fearless, absurdly happy, and in constant trouble.-

G.K. Chesterton
British Writer and Apologist
1874-1936