Despite the Busyness

I'm not sure if that's how you spell busyness, but hey even the best mess up once in a while right? Anyways, Brittany wanted me to post so I guess I will even though I"m up to my eyeballs with stuff. This feels like a rant blog. Maybe I have nothing to complain about, but I have just been really stressed lately. Almost to the point of tears this morning because I felt like there was no one who could just sit there in listen, without throwing in their two cents or opinion, I just want to spill out everything sometimes. SO work is getting to me. Getting up at 5 every day is not easy especially when life at home isn't exactly relaxing either. It can be so insane living with three boys who are home all the time. They just make a LOT of noise, and to someone who likes quiet this is very frustrating. Wherever I go to get that quiet, they seem to follow with their loud giggles and very annoying sound effects. Girls don't make sound effects!! grrr!! I decided last week I want to apply for the Music Program at the U of S. SO I am taking piano lessons starting next week so I will be practicing a lot the next few months. I also have to brush up on my theory. If I go into this program, I know it will be very stressful for the next four years, and this is a bit apprehensive to me. I like some relaxation time and if I don't get that I go crazy. But I know if it's what I'm supposed to do, I will do it. I alos don't really want to move away like to Brandon Manitoba, I would like to stay here at the U of S. We'll see how it all works out. SO I worked 8 hours today and now I am teaching Goldfins I Can Swim for someone beause they totalled their car last night. ANd he is my friend so there is an extra double whammy, because how bad a friend would I be if I said no. I just couldn't. And then I have youth tonight, and I know I'm just going to be exhausted by 9 or even earlier. So that's my stress, there's more that I won't put on there, problems with myself and how I'm feeling at this time, how our house is just crazy and just thinking a lot about the future and hwat I am supposed to be doing. this weekend is going to be refresher time so I think I'm going to take it easy and spend time with me, yeah you heard me....me, myself, and I. Sometimes I just need that. A free weekend in front of me.