Life and.....Death

Death. Not the most inspirational topic. A topic we don’t think about a lot, try to ignore because it brings so much sadness. Until it smacks you in the face. Then you have to think about it. What made me bring this subject up?? I just watched this movie The Life of David Gale. Very intense movie and one that the ending was really a blow in the face. Wow. That’s all I can say. But it made me think about death. And the fact is, it’s going to happen to all of us. The question is, what if you knew you were going to die? The exact moment. Maybe something like leukemia, not as specific but you knew you were dying. But if you were on death row. You had done something wrong but you still knew the exact time you were going to die. What a depressing though? What if we knew the moment we were going to die? What would we do to change our life? What would we put first that we always said we would do later on? What would we say to those around us, those we love? Would we treat people with more dignity because we realize that everyone needs to be loved? What are we actually doing to people when we put them down or make fun of them or treat them different? Hate is a strong word isn’t it? Do you like the feeling of being hated? I look back at my day sometimes and regret things I’ve said or done…sometimes on my own and other’s not resisting the influence of other people. A Steven Curtis Chapman song says “I’m living the next five minutes, like these were my last five minutes, and after the next five minutes I’m starting all over again.” I know I would tell people I loved them at that they are important to me. And how much God loves them and desires to be in a relationship with them? Everyone just wants to have fun but when that’s all said and done what do you have left? How can I show people that there is so much meaning to life? That it is rich and not to be wasted away? All these questions and I don’t exactly have the answer. Maybe people think I’m crazy for believing in God so strongly and passionately. A faith in something I cannot see. But in my spirit I know He is there. I love life but I’m not afraid of death. Maybe seeing all the people in pain around me, maybe while I’m in the flesh missing them in advance, knowing while I’m here that I will not be a part of their lives anymore. But what comes next?? That I’m not afraid of. Just some questions and thoughts. That movie made me think really hard which is good.