Too Much
I'm feeling stressed right now. Why am I blogging then? I don't really know, I haven't for a while. I'm not sure if anyone reads this anymore. Like, three people. Sometimes I wonder what is the point. I haven't had one consecutive day where I got to do completely what I wanted to in forever. I'm feeling the pressure closing in. Plus , everything else on top of that. I am going to teach swimming lessons 7 times this week!! After, I just don't want to talk cause I've talked for three hours straight sometimes. blahhh. that's about all that will come out of my mouth. I have this computer class that thankfully is almost over, but I have a final coming up and I am worried about that. I feel like I'm always doing this class, all the time. And getting to work and back takes up so much time, for like two hours, my travel time is between 10-70 min, depending if I have to take the bus or not. Then there is this other class I'm taking that I feel like there is 500 pages of reading to do. the thing is, THERE IS 500 pages over the next two months and three reports. And soccer. And chores. And church stuff. And babysitting. And more work. And finding time for people. Finding time for things I want to get better at. I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm stressed that's what it is. And tired.
Well I'm learning to appreciate the parents I have, more than before. I'm glad they are fairly open to talk to about everything. Well almost everything. the Torah thing, still makes things awkward so I always find myself stopping myself from saying stuff in conversations. I wish I still had that. But I'm sure most people can't talk to their parents about everything anyways, so I guess it's not a big deal. I know that there is someone that I can tell pretty much everything to, even if I dont'see them all the time I know they are there. And my parents are being less strict with money and stuff. They're putting money towards the bike I'm buying and they bought me a bike lock on Sunday, which I wasn't expecting. I'm also trying to eat healthier. it's weird how when I was little I would be really mad at my parents for eating differently, really healthy, so when I got older I was sort of rebellious in that area, not in a bad way, just I would eat what I wanted when I went out. And now that I'm older I'm glad they did that, and I appreciate it now, that I will know how to eat healthy and make good choices for that when I'm older and at an age where I really need to think about these kind of things. I know I feel way better when I do. I should really get back to homework. oh and for the summer, I'm going to try really hard to get time off for camp. I really want to come this year. I realized that, and realized maybe it's possible that I can still come. yay for getting time off work.
Your tired and feeling stressed aquaintance
posted by Leah @ 7:25 PM
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Hey Leah, and everyone else.
You are an awesome person. I hope you realize how beautiful you are, and what you are becoming. God created you differently, and I really dont understand it all but I am glad to know you.
Its nice to hear that you are able to talk with your rents more comfortably now. If it does help, I often dont talk with my parents about issues Im having that envolve my faith. I really dont go to them for advice that often, I advise them and heed their imput. They will tell you that they have litle to do with who I am today. Ofcourse, they were always there for me like all parents are, weather we feal that or not at times. But I was raised by everything I saw fitting to take in, till I met God, and now I try to have a steady diet of what He wants me to know and what not to know. But, I do slip up ofcourse and take a sip or even a good chunk of good ol' rotten sin, it sucks, it hurts, but God forgives and heals. But how else would we learn right. God takes us back.
As for fealing the pressure. It is getting crunch time for us grade twelvers. You above all else, your taking university to. I can imagine though. I am now caught up one unit in physics. I hope to write that test this week. I still have a whole unit and a half to go. I still have to miss another week of school for nationals and whatever days I just cant show up for because of this dang head ache. But thats all nothing to me, just because its nothing to God. He cares about my stress and wishes that it were gone. He also wishes the same for you. I cant tell you how to rely on his strength more than you already do. You are an amazing girl Leah, I know this because well, I like to think that I am getting to know you and not just what's going on. You are strong and brave. You will make it to summer, to a time when you can sit back, close your eyes and just let the sun and chirping birds bother you from sleeping at midday. You will make it through this latter end of your semesters at school. You will get to do the things that you want too do and God is dooing the things that you let Him do right now. Teaching you and molding you and letting you be really stretched right now, but he will keep you from taering as you let Him. He is an awesome God. Never be afraid to cry. I dont know what else to say, but when do I ever know what to say. I dont ever.
Your Friend
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Ps: I am trying to eat healthier to, but its a litle harder here. My family doesnt exactly have a healthy diet. But I have to shape up what I am eating.....or else.
Hey Leah!
I understand stress. Not always that much fun, it can really wear a person out that is for sure. Soon you will get that day to just relax. As you grow up those days become few and far between. Sometimes even if you don't have the time to do it. You have to take that little break. It is good that you are getting lots of teaching in, I think it will help you save up for all the different crazy things that you need! I wish I was better at saving money... alas, not so much.
One thing that has helped me in the past. Is that if you are starting to feel really stressed out. Start waking up at 7am. Get ready for the day. Go to work, do your homework, all that stuff until say 5pm. (other than soccer!) Then for your own sake take the night off. If you aren’t done, you aren’t done. Just take a break! Take a rest. And take sometime for yourself, for you and God. For some relaxation.
I'm really happy that things at your house seem to be going better! And you aren’t right most people don't talk to their parents about everything. There are a lot of people here for yah, we are here to help you through this. Growing up isn't easy, but know that you are doing just fine at it.
Love You lots my deario leah!
Ashley
Philippians 4:6 (NLT)
‘Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.’
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