Sporadic Blogging

So...........it's been a while hasn't it? Many hours have been spent blogging since I started this blog last year in January. My address and blog name has changed numerous times since then. I've changed since then. Who I am, my personality, my tastes, and experiences have changed and grown. Actually a lot of painful hours have been spent looking at this little box where I type in my life and what is going on. All I have to say is...sometimes I am amazed by how much we humans think alike when we actually reveal what we think and admit things to each other. But other times...well I have thoughts that no one else has. And it can be frustrating trying to explain why I feel a certain way. Sometimes there are no words and it doesn't feel like telling anyone will make anything feel any better and it will just make more of a mess out of things. So that kind of thing, I just have to learn to deal with it myself. No one can help me. Life is confusing sometimes I have to say. And stressful. But whatever, that's life for you; it wouldn't be life without those emotions.

Well soccer is starting. Although I might not be able to make it to many practices I'm looking forward to it. I'll play soccer just for fun any day. And soon I will be 18, a couple of weeks actually. That's so scary and weird. Sometimes I just want to grow up faster, maybe I think that life will be better but that is probably just wishful thinking. What other hard stuff do I have to look forward to in life? And other times I really just want to be younger. Age of choice: 16 I think. That would give me a chance to start earlier on other goals, maybe I would make different decisions, and maybe I wouldn't. If I was allowed to keep my future memories, I hope I would make better choices. Maybe then I wouldn’t feel like a complete idiot looking back at myself. Or maybe I would make a complete idiot out of myself again. Knowing me that’s probably what would happen. I would do some things differently and I would do some things the same. Lots of things have turned out good. Don't you ever wish you could do that? Maybe relive an experience or make a different choice? I know we all have at one point or another. Well guess what.... another piece of boring news but I'm looking forward to it. In a month we are getting hardwood floors for our living room and the hallway that leads to all the bedrooms. I think that is all the money my parents want to put into it right now. Next year we might get more, probably the stairs. Anyways, I've got lots of stuff to do this week; especially this dumb computer assignment that will be hard and I will have trouble with. I will be overjoyed when this class is over in a month. Have a good week everybody.