The Second TIme

With my parents I always feel like I'm the one being bad or just being lazy and not doing naything to help. But I try to, sometimes I feel like they just expect too much of me. Or they expect too much for just being part of the family. I'm not 12 and don't have a life anymore. I have school, work, church, social stuff, music, and even with only two classes it feels like I never have enough time. Add chores onto all of the other stuff, I'm tired beofre half the day is over. And I try to excercise when I have time which doesn't seem to be very often. maybe I just waste too much time. But it feels like I never have free time anymore. I try to save Fridays for that. Like, I am so tired right now. I slept 10 hours last night. This week was kind of crazy but I feel like I need a long nap. Are you supposed to argue that much with your parents? I envy those who don't. This is stupid reasoning but I feel like maybe we would fight less if they weren't so demanding. but they don't think they are. They just say I should get up earlier, and then they say they do all this stuff for me when they pick me up from work a couple times a week. We only have one vehicle so it makes things difficult. Adn then they bring up the fact that I have a roof over my head. We argue at least once a day it seems like. I don't like it. But they never seem to see my point, I feel like they dont' even hear what I'm saying. We have the same recurring fights 3 or 4 times a week. On various ubject so make that a lot of arguments. I"m probably just being a bad child. Yeah, I'm disobedient, ungrateful, lazy, I don't help out, oh and wait, I'm most likely ignoring God. I can't do anything right in this life. I always fail at everything. No matter how good you are it's never good enough. What's the point of trying to be good when everything is overlooked? I probably shouldn't write about this on my blog. My mom would be mad if she knew I did. I just don't know what else to do to get my frustration out. At least barely no on reads this.