The Decisions of Life
God has been working in my life so much this past week. It is strange how I don't even notice it until it happens or is already happening. But being more in tune with God also makes you more aware of situations around you and decisions you need to make. Sometimes they are hard but even if they're hard I think you know they're the right thing to if you feel at peace about it. Sometimes they really suck but in the long run you are hurt less because you know it is what God wants. At least that is my view of it, I don't know if that is logical or reasonable.
My mind has been changing so much about life decisions and what I need to do after Grade 12. It's crazy. First I thought I would go to Bible College and then I thought I would go to Bible college for a year degree and then do something. then I though I would work or go to university or a bit of both. And now I have no idea what.........if I don't know I'm going to divide my time between M180 and work. I feel a push in that direction but I don't know why. I don't feel a desire for anything else right now. I love people and I care about them is all I know. I want to see God work and I want to know what it means to lay down my life and die to self. I want to do that badly. So I pray that God shows me what that means in my life.
I was so excited when I heard that 25 people were saved in Nelson House. I have never been a part of something that exciting. I will never regret all the lost sleep, the hard work, and being sick if that is what comes of it. And even if nothing did I would still do it all over again. I'm crazy. But the parents of some of the youth want to kick their youth Pastor Rob out who is a teacher there. He is like their lifeline here on earth. God is their lifeline but they need a leader. There is a lot of native spirituatlity and shaman and all that stuff there so they desperately need our prayer support whoever reads this!! The thing is all I got from my parents was a nochalant "cool"and "wow"from my dad and nothing from my mom. Come on...I just told you the most exciting news ever!!!! Just because they haven't started eating Kosher or practicing the Sabbath or something. Their eternity was changed..that's something to get so excited about. I asked my sister later...."is it just my imagination or did they not seem that pumped about it?"
She said, "did you notice sometimes it's hard to even carry on a conversation sometimes with them?" and it's true. i didn't really notice it but we can go on and on about something and they will just make one word comments about it. Maybe there weren't thrilled because they realize more and more that I am not going to come back and do what they think is right because I don't think it is. Maybe not because people got saved but because I'm not going to practice what they practice. And my Dad always asks me to come and do these studies with them and I always say No. I feel so bad about it though but I just don't feel right doing it. I feel so uncomfortable. I am still not feeling good. I really have to go.
Until next time......
posted by Leah @ 9:46 PM
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Anywho, I think that your excitement is awsome, God is moving and it is right to be excited and to praise God for what he is dooing. I got the same response from a few worship team members (sunday morning team), they said "wow", thats about it. It really grieves my spirit to see the older gernations, not only in the church but at whole, becoming comfortable with what God has already done. New things and works of God dont seem to attract or inspire them. Our generation needs to take charge now, and we need to promise the next generation that we will never loose confidents in the spririt or zeal for the workings of God.
I think its super cool that you are fealing a passion growing in you for people. As much as bible colledge has to offer, the bible didnt say you needed a degree to preach the gospel.
"But you shall receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you; and you shall be witnesses to me in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth." (Acts 1:8)
All we need is to be filled with the holy spirit, all we need as beleivers to tackle this world is God, not a degree in whatever to get a career. We need to follow Christ, we need to be radical, spend your youthful energy reaching the world, go to colledge when you need to sit in a chair, until then God will look after your livelyhood, your talents, and your knowledge. M180 is an awsome program, and it will do so much more if it has leaders like you taking charge in the name of Christ.
I hope things at home will improve drastically for you and that your rents will see and hear what you believ. Be at peace about that, but pray.
Would it surprise you to know that Pastor Rob never went to bible colledge, he said, "I was schooled by the spirit." (or something similar to that) Isnt that awsome, he never went to colledge, he jsut believed God for the knowlege and the abillity's to do what God had laid out before him. Youth are on fire for christ on that reserve, and we need to give all the prayer's we can to Rob and his youth group. He had 30+ youth come out to his tuesday night meeting, 13 of them were saved! That is awsome and God derserves a whole lot of praise. Let our hearts be softned for Him.
From the north,
TraV
Just an FYI here.
The leader of M:180 has post secondary education and training from a bible college. He also insists on it as part of the training and prep for anyone who would ever endeavor to work with M:180 on a paid staff postition.
People who think bible college training is optional for a life of spiritual leadership actually make me ill. The only way it is optional is if it does not exist. Then God will train you for the work completely in a supernatural way. It is and always will be available, and it is not optional. That's where how we get wing nut cults.
People who refuse to go to bible college, and who make light of it, and put themselves in postions of spiritual leadership demonstrate a desire to be unaccountable, and show a spirit of unteachability.
I felt I should comment on that, as i do not want for a moment anyone thinking that M:180 and it's leadership don't support, event insist on Post Secondary Biblical education at a deep level for anyone who would be in a ministry leadership position.
pastor jason, Out
Yes Trav, people do comment!!! at least i always try to! :) if not via post then via e-mail! :)
Anyway! :)
I'm really pumped for you Leah, I think Thompson was a huge turning point for you and God really did a work in your heart and in your spirit and in everything. I Pray that you continue to strive forward with your passion for God and never give it up. Keep on praying and staying in the word. Listen for God's voice as closely as possible. Sometimes its so easy to miss what God is saying to us simply because we just don't want to listen. I'm proud of you girl, lets help each other through the next few months of decisions. I'll talk to you more about that later! :) I luv yah girl see yah in about 10 minutes! (considering church is about to start! :))
ashley
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In addition...
I didnt mean that post secondary and colledge and prep school was pointless, I think what they teach there is awesome and useful in the life of a leader. I only meant that its not a bad Ideah to get your feet wet first as some put it. Is also a good ideah to go to school first. I would never discourage anyone from going to bible college, and I probaly will go myself. I just think experince in the feild of minsitry is a must. Weather people choose to do it before or after really is up to God and themselelves. Sorry about anything I might have implied other wise. If Christ leads you to bible colledge then go. Sory again. Just be radical where ever God calls you always.
I know Bible College is important if you're supposed to go into ministry....You kind of sounded ticked off there or mad for a second there J. I didn't mean it like that...I just meant I want to spend my time helping out if I dont'know what I'm supposed to do yet......I was NEVER implying anything like that....NEVER!!!! In fact your comment really confused me because I didn't know where you were getting that from really i guess. anyways....
sorry Pastor Jason......I didn't read the comments that Trav left...sorry again. But at least I clarified a bit more
oh my goodness, lets argue about it! On Leah’s blog!!! and spell everything wrong.. okay so I’m bad speller, but at least I grammar and spell check my things:
Its Whether not Weather... THE CLOUDS ARE NOT IN THIS CONVERSATION!!! haha :)
I never thought that the day would come where I could actually make fun of someone for spelling!!! THIS IS AWESOME… *Not Awsome* I have a good IDEA not *Ideah* I thought trav was trying to write LEAH not IDEA.. I was confused.. mind you I still get confused easily! any-hoo!!
oh my, I am a terrible speller, I didn't think I was that bad. Hmmm....again, oh my. Well, tease me all you want, its probaly for the best that you should, a litle more of that and maby I would try harder to do well at spelling. Its just a weak point of mine, it doesn't help that I am a terrible typer to add to that and I am mixing up keys and all that. *sigh*
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