My Worst Nightmare

Okay, well not my worst nightmare but it was pretty unreal. No offense to the people I know that say stuff in this dream....it was just in my dream.

I'm leading worship for the first time and we're having a practice. We barely get anything done and people are coming in and it's not even a normal youth service. A lot of adults are there too. So I'm up there and then I ask Jasen Lutz what songs we're doing for sure. He's like we're doing this song. I said, "I don't even know that song." And then he says, "You'll catch on pretty quick." Then I try to pray before we start and it's like the stage is tilting and I keep falling off. And I'm falling down the stairs trying to pray laying half sitting on the stairs. then i go to put my guitar on and i have a hat on and for some reason I was trying to put on blush or something. Then all there is is these big piles of chord sheets and I can't find the song I'm supposed to do. And the mike keeps moving around and i can't here myself in the monitor. and I still feel like I'm falling off the stage, like I'm losing control over my body. Then Evan comes up and he says, "So which ones of you have a arranged binder." no one did so I gave him my guitar and he says kind of ticked off, "I'll play seven minutes." I walk off the stage and down the aisle not looking at anybody because I'm too embarassed and it's like I can't reach the sanctuary doors to get out. And my mom is standing near the door. Then I go back in and Í'm kind of upset and Evan sees me and he said something and then sat in the row in front of me. And I said, "I'm not mad because you played, I'm just upset because we weren't prepared."

So that is my dream and it was kind of freaky. Note to self: Be very prepared when leading worship first time or not!