Resigning

I am officially resigning from blogging. This is my last post. I will keep it on here for a week and then I will delete it. I have hurt someone who is important to me and that is a good enough reason for it. Maybe it will teach me to talk to people in person instead of venting my frustrations here.....in fact it will force me to even if it's hard. This is something an anyonymous friend wrote for me. It is truly talent and I wanted to put it on my last post........

She has cried. Cried a lot really. No one really keeps track of such things. She has also fought much. With people, with God, with herself. She is a battleground, and the lines have been drawn with deep dark trenches. She wants it all to end, and for everything to simply be better. More than anything, she is tired. Tired of feeling angry, frustrated, whatever emotion you can throw at her. Even when she is happy, there has always been the hurt lying beneath her best defences and hard-pressed smiles. The festive season does her no good. No purpose to invest her joy into. She feels as if she is drowning inside herself...groping madly in a world gone mad. She is not alone. God watches her every move...she may not feel His eyes burning, alive with fierce emotion, but they never move from her face. He loves her. He sheds tears, flowing a freely as the blood that He gave long ago. His muscles are tense, ready in an instant to catch her should she collapse. He has seen it all, the fights, the tears, and He traces every wound she carries with gentle hands. She will smile again, and these scars will be medals.

..........I just want my relationship with God to be okay again and truly feel that He loves me. I don't want to just know it, I want to experience it. So, sayonora to all.....I will definetly be spending less time on the computer.