HoHum..

My head hurts and my throat hurts and my eyes are burning. Yes, I am sick. It's weird 'cause I got sick around this time last year too. It's not making it any better that I wish I was any place but here. If I didn't consider moving out before I really wish I could now. And sometimes I wonder why I ever thought my family was weird or my mom ever psychotic and then she does something that reminds me of the very reason I thought that. I was watching a movie in the basement because I'm sick and she comes storming down, mad that my sister didn't do the dishes (because my sister was mad about something) shuts of the TV and yells at me that she didn't buy a second TV so we could watch it whenever we want to. This of course was the first time I had watched a movie on that TV and I have barely spent time in front of the tube for the past 4 months because I didn't have time to. Plus, my mom is sick about 65% of the time, has a TV in her room and has watched countless hours of TV and she gets mad at me. Ooookay then. I am so frickin mad about that and other things. For the billionth time I wish I lived in a normal family and that I didn't have a reason to want to move out. okay, i know pretty much ever single teenager that has walked the planet thinks their family is weird but I am not kidding when i say my family is frickin insane...well pretty much just my mom. And I know she probably would be hurt if she read this but it is true and even my dad agrees with me at times. Of course it always seems to be worse around Christmas even though we're not celebrating it! i don't get it. The reason I would move out is because my mom drove me away, because i wouldn't be able to stand her anymore. I just wish there was an easy way to do that and that there was money for that.